hopelessness, hopelessness, this is the way my mind drifts. i've had it, i've had it, i've had it up to here. sights are locked in now, beyond the point of no return. on a one way course with death, in my mind the world will burn. hopelessness and a burning pit, you never believe me, you"ll never believe me you never will. so for now, all bets are off, all guilt absolved I will be your whipping boy. for God, Jesus, Hitler, Satan love and war. Beat me to death and leave me on the floor. In grey mottled ecstasy, A test tube hysterectomy. an abortion post natally A renewal in a pool of energy.